[It's not the morbidity of the thought. She really doesn't mind it.]
[But the visual nature of it, the focus on image...]
[It's a little too close to her thoughts, a little too true on a little too personal of a level, and feeling like Kaede has noticed that shameful urge she has to play the perfect martyr, there's terrified guilt written all over her face.]
no subject
[It's not the morbidity of the thought. She really doesn't mind it.]
[But the visual nature of it, the focus on image...]
[It's a little too close to her thoughts, a little too true on a little too personal of a level, and feeling like Kaede has noticed that shameful urge she has to play the perfect martyr, there's terrified guilt written all over her face.]